Fast Track


Every one who knows me knows that I signed my marriage contract in a jhat pat fashion. The decision to go through this by both families was made three days before the actual ceremony. And two of those days were working days. In three days, we scrambled to get a caterer who would put a decent tent in my backyard, as well as serve good food. In three days, I had to pick a dress and get it stitched. In three days, we had to suddenly inform close family members. There was a lot of stress- a lot of pressure- a lot of everything. But it got done. There were perhaps fifty or less than fifty people who attended the ceremony and as far as I recall, the whole thing started at around Maghrib and ended well before eleven p.m.


Fact of the matter is that in three days with zero planning at our backs, both me and my husband did not get the opportunity to call as many people as we would have liked to. Personally, I always wanted a very low key, private affair but there were some friends whose presence would have been great. However, after all was said and done, in retrospect, I don’t regret anything. I had my ammi, my aboo, my aapi, my brothers, my aunty  and close family members and at the end of the day , they were all the people I truly needed.


Yes, some friends do moan that I should have atleast informed them- but frankly what they do not understand is that in three days, two of which I spent at my office, I had perhaps gazillion of other things on my to do list. Leave alone, the to do list , my mental state was not such that I actually wanted to sit down call each friend, shock them , and chit chat more on that front. I just did not have the brain, or the time. I think even on the day of the ceremony, both me and hubby were dazed after all the crazy shopping, organizing, arranging and hearing our relatives talk. When it was all over, we were just glad that it happened and we could relax, eat, smile and chill.


There were friends who immediately understood when a day after the ceremony, the call was made to give the good news. But then there were some who did not understand. Some made me feel bad, upset and slightly marred my happiness. I was already in a daze and nervous as hell, not to mention having several panic attacks with the realization that, OMG! I am a WIFE now and these people were not exactly helping. So yeah I decided to put my foot down, and exclaim to myself, “ NO WAY, THIS IS MY MOMENT AND I WILL NOT LET PEOPLE’S TANTRUMS RUIN THIS FOR ME. What matters to me is this new relationship, this new bond and this new phase of my life and I will live it to my fullest. If there are some folks who cannot understand, it is their mind set and not mine. :-) “


And for those who immediately understood, my respect for them has increased two fold. :)


My husband still faces gripes from some friends. It amazes me. I think given the fact that he had to single handedly arrange everything in three days, from taking me shopping, taking his family shopping, arranging things, calling relatives and buying his own sherwani :p, I think people should really give him a break. He deserves it.


Last night, as we sat gorging 14th Street Pizza , Peporoni and Chicken Fajita to be exact and were watching the most nonsensical of movies that we eventually switched off for good, this realization was re-inforced.


We have each other and frankly the rest of the world, the hoo haas, the haw hayays and the nay sayers do not matter. I look forward to the future and at this point, if I had to do it again, I would do it the same way.


*MashaAllah* * MashaAllah* *MashaAllah*


– A special change –


All worries vanished. A strange lull in my storms of my heart. A calm, serene flow of life. Grasped moments so softly in the palms of my hand. I have you. You have me. And this life has been complete. AlHamdulilAllah and MashaAllah.


Requesting Prayers,

Mrs. Me. :)

Marriage and the “D” Word.

At the onset, I am no authority on marriage and relationships. I do not even know if I have what it takes to sustain a marriage and be the perfect wife. I have always maintained that I have inherent faults which at this point in time although may be addressed but there is no guarantee that they will be fixed. Unless, someone is really nice to me…  :)

Despite the above, my expectations about marriage are fairly realistic. Fights- Frustrations- Anger- Lack of personal space-Expectations- Comparisons and related pitfalls. HOWEVER, I do firmly believe in the same vein that there is Contentment, Happiness, Companionship, Elation, Love, Comfort and Enjoyment flowing out of a marriage as well. But nothing in life is free and therefore the good parts will be yours if there is Commitment, Compromise, Sacrifice, Understanding and the Willingness to curb our big egos. ( I know so many adjectives, right? )


This is why I am gutted when I hear that a marriage did not work out, especially when two people look so perfect for each other. Well, that is lesson number one- appearances can be deceptive. And lesson number two, they may be perfect with each other, but they may not be perfect for each other.

Of course there are valid reasons for seeking divorce- physical abuse, constant fights owing to serious incompatibility, trust issues, cheating, defrauding being some of them. But recently it appears that people are seeking divorce for the strangest of things such as misunderstandings and breaking of an illusion of having a perfect and ideal person as your spouse.

To set things straight, there is a reason why misunderstandings are called misunderstandings in the first place and these should be resolved as opposed to just abandoned.

When you sign on a marriage contract, you commit to a lot of things, the prominent of them being your agreement to share your entire life with that one person. That is not an easy decision. A whole lot of thought and labour goes into it. Therefore, why would you want a misunderstanding to destroy everything?

Why don’t two people sit across a table, alone (yes, no immediate nosy relatives and friends please) and talk. Find out what went wrong? Address how those wrongs can be made into rights. Find a solution.

I am not at all saying that there is always a solution. There may not be a solution after all, but you need to give your best shot.

It may not be your fault. It may not be your decision to call it quits, but would you let ego trample over both of you in this situation? I sure do hope not. At the end of it all, even if things do not go right and two people decide to take different paths, you do have that comfort that you tried your best.

Idealism and the illusion of a perfect person and a perfect relationship waiting for you with open arms is a big NO, NO. Seriously, perfection is only Allah’s attributes and we human’s just cannot match up. It will be a good idea to chuck all expectations out of the door when getting married because there is just no way your spouse can  match them.

Your spouse will be lazy at times. Will get angry over nothing. Will irritate you. Will create drama. Be jealous and plain crazy at times, because that is what makes one human. Believe it or not, you do the same things yourselves at times (even if you do not realize it).

Accept your spouse with their flaws and your spouse will accept you with yours. Learn to look at the positive and good parts for e.g. the way he/she makes you smile, the way he/she comforts you, cooks, drives and the list goes on. (To be honest, I cannot elaborate on the list owing to utter lack of experience. ;))

Then again marriages are also breaking up because two people are being forced to marry each other when they clearly do not want to simply because of social and family pressure. You should always marry for the right reason and “marrying to meet external social pressures” is definitely not one of them.

Parents should not force their off springs to marry a person that their child has no interest in. Think of it this way, inevitably two lives are being ruined. If you do not want to be with a person, how can you be happy with them? You just can not.

I recently got to know of a marriage that is breaking down simply because the girl liked someone else and was forced to marry an individual to meet her parent’s wishes. The result- she eventually chose to file for divorce.  Without going into facts and dissecting this situation, I would draw your attention to the real problem- marrying someone not because you want to but because of social pressure.

Assuming the parents knew about their daughter’s earlier love interest, they clearly should not have forced to marry another person. This is just wrong.

Forget that, the social pressure on a girl in her late twenties and thirties to get married is COLOSSAL. Every third person she meets is curious to know when she is getting married and why she is not getting married. Everybody wants to introduce her to someone. She is embarrassed routinely by folks who have her best interests at heart but make a joke of her without realizing it.

In a recent conversation during which it was clarified that a certain lady I know in her late forties and fifties is unmarried, the person on the other end inquired, “Is she a lesbian?”

So, if a woman is of marriageable age and not married, people assume all sorts of things about her and the thought never passes through their fickle brains that the reasons could be in fact quite different. There may not be a reason at all except that despite her desire to get married, it just did not happen. Just did not.

Staying single is much better than marrying out of social pressure. This applies to both genders. It is not like men in their mid thirties onwards are not subject to similar social harassment.

Marriage therefore should be taken seriously and you should get married for the “Right Reasons.” Never for someone, never to meet some one’s expectations, never because you are too old, but because you are mentally ready to spend your life with that one person.

And life goes on…