And I always let go. I always let go. I always forgive. I always forgive. Is forgiving a sin? Is forgiving letting someone get away with crime and their conscious mistakes? Am i leading people to take advantage of me again and again just by forgiving them?
And you? you have blown my trust so many times, and yet, i kneel, until my knees turn blue, forgiving and forgiving you, and hiding and gulping the pain and the hurt. And i forget. I forget. I forget everytime. I convince myself that things would be different- but you always prove me wrong. And the little me inside myself- taunts me- “Told you so”. *smirk*
I am destroying myself. Will i forgive myself? Will i forgive myself for the crimes i am committing against my life? Will i forget?
The blame is always on me.